Reflection and an old lady

Life experiences can be a very peculiar sometimes. There are people who pretend that they are certain of their life pathways, knowing where they going how they will do things and where and when they will do this perhaps with a hint of pretending and proclaiming  to the world their assertiveness. While others innocently will openly express their anxiety of life’s uncertainties s as they see it. Many others sit in the fence of being in-beetweners that could possibly be you and I. We observe life as it happens day by day, experience its ups and downs neither do we pretend nor are we interested in an appearance of having it figured out.

At the age of 11 I one day looked out of the window as I often was seen doing just trying to be away with my thoughts to let my mind wonder with the world’s biggest questions, only to notice an old lady from the opposite window of the opposite blocks of flats. She was probably in her late 90 with a gracefully aged face that most certainly has been through decades. In a glimpse of a moment our eyes met and I probably have never forgotten the intensity of our sight of connection.  In this intense couple of seconds all I could think of was how much life this women must have had on this earth how much she had probably experienced and how life has caught up with her leaving her in a fragile state of mind and body, all I could wish for her was to hope that her long stay here was worth it! The irony is that I truly believed that her thoughts as she was staring into my youthful eyes filled with curiosity and vigour was:”I too was this young once upon a time, little girl, I know that it goes quickly time that is and if time catches up with you you too will be in my state soon, make sure that your make your stay worthwhile”! 20 years later often do I think about this lady as if I saw her today, and I think about if we had meet again today she would probably have said; “did I not tell you little girl that life would have caught up with you, so have you reflected upon your life yet? Have you lived yet? Has your life been one with dignity, duty, and perseverance for something good, have you truly spend your time wisely? Or have you just existed? Have you questioned your passions and found what you supposed to stand for or have you followed what is supposed to be and not questioned? Have you been courageous in your causes or have you crippled into a comfortable zone where pretty much the rest of us stay? Have you gone beyond the call of duty and truly felt the deepest human connection? Have you made a difference? Well little girl you still not as old as me and so if you are unable to answer any of my chanting questions you still remain on this earth and so time is still on your hands, maybe if I ever come into your mind again after sometime I am more than sure you will be able to answer much of my questions. Above all little girl think, reflect much and deep, for the best of courses of actions  comes from such activities and just let life happen, rest assure it will happen without your permission, go along with it but never lose your core sense of self in anything. Rise above any challenges, trust me that’s  what this life is but you have the freedom of thoughts and so you can rename circumstances beyond of what they appear to be no matter how horrible they feel. Never call them chances and never complain about them, they meant to be experienced for a specific purpose, face them with an assured heart and trust me that nothing will ever be lost, not your efforts, nor your struggles even if that appears the case for other. Never think about what others have to say or think, rise beyond such noises, for at end of the darkness of the day they are only frequencies of noises which disappear in the air lost amongst the galaxies not affecting any existing stars. Little girl live and experience and put the life’s puzzles together that is your life’s puzzle, your pieces are scattered on this earth, once you have completed your puzzle together everything will be much more clearer, trust me, hang on and continue, little girl.

Three decades later and some contemplations

So here I am again!

As I am contemplating a day of celebration of making it to existence for THREE decades I quickly realise that I probably have been brain washed in thinking that this is something overwhelming. I am supposed to have done x and y and achieved z along the way. This I would probably call the influence of cultural, social and environmental psychosocial realism! As if you are neither any better or wiser or more grown up if you have not done or have whoever todays society have deemed as an idol have or have done. As if this is a bench mark for success and prosper to be compared to.

However as I contemplate a bit deeper and start taking the "I" away from my thoughts and start reflecting on some worldly facts during my 3 decade existence, I quickly realise that things don't seem to be all ok around me, take a look; there are now:

1. More natural disasters than there has ever been before: earthquakes (Haiti-222, 570, South-Asian tsunami-226, 408, Kashmir-73338) floods (Mumbai-1200).

2. More wars than ever before: last decades Child victims of war include an estimated 2 million killed, 4 to 5 million disabled, 12 million left homeless, and more than 1 million orphaned.

3. More nuclear, weapons and military spending than ever before: Current global military spending has reached $781 billion annually; more than the total income of the poorest 45% of the global population. 49% of all federal tax revenues in the US go towards current or past military costs.

4. More landmine killings than ever before: between 60 and 70 million landmines are in the ground in at least 70 countries. Land mines maim or kill approximately 26,000 civilians every year.

5. More deaths from unsafe waters than ever before, children are most affected; every year, unsafe water, coupled with a lack of basic sanitation, kills at least 1.6 million children under the age of five years.

6. More continues deaths from diarrhoea, which easily treated; every year 2.2 million (HIV/AIDS, Malria and Tuberculosis remains the deadliest causes).

7.More people living in poverty (probably exacerbated by the number of wars) than ever before; 1.29 billion people is estimated by UN to live in absolute poverty defined as $1.25 per day (by World bank).

8. More people experiencing neurotic health conditions than ever before: at present 40% of disability worldwide is due to depression and anxiety.

9.  More women experiencing exploitations than anytime previously; in South Africa, a woman is killed every 6 hours by an intimate partner, In India, 22 women are killed each day dowry related, in Guatemala, two women are murdered each day by violent partner and 3 million British women experience violence every year. 80% of the estimated 800,000 people trafficked annually are women (79% for sexual purposes) and between 40 and 50 per cent of women in European Union countries experience unwanted sexual harassment at their workplace.

10. More people in debt than ever before: in Britain personal debt has reached £1.4tn – almost the same amount as Britain's national economic output.

So not much has actually changed for the better during my existence in fact if a wave of pessimism is allowed into this whole mix of facts much has become a lot worse! And the most important question which really deserves all contemplation is how has my living for 3 decades affected/impacted or contributed (positively) to lessening these dire facts? I decide to keep the answer silent for my inner thoughts but I hope that I am not alone in wanting to think about and question my stay on earth for 30 years in such fashion and what my contribution has actually been.

“Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on earth”

Muhammad Ali

New beginings

I just wanted to start this blog with a dear, but then quickly realised that this is not an email or I am not writing for somebody or maybe I am and I haven't caught your name yet! So I have named this post a new beginning and began thinking how many such occasions have I had now in my life. Couple of years ago I had one of those moments where you sit with yourself in deep reflection of your where your life is heading and believe it or not this happens to me more often than the average person. In my midst of reflection I made a promise that if god willed that every so often when I loose my umff of passion to just get up and look for new experiences, adventures which could possibly give a sense of personal growth and a sense of making a difference somehow. Am I making sense here. So I decided roughly I would do this every 3 years since over the years I have the pleasure of getting to know myself pretty well I quickly realised that that is the longest time I can last in an environment before I get a move on symptom and a year ago was that moment.

What happened was that upon quickly realising I needed a new start I originally applied to a position abroad and the whole process took a year or so and things were too complicated and sadly it was impossible to make a reality. However straight after this an opportunity opened up and it was not abroad but here in the UK but in a different city far from home. This meant that I had to leave my family home, start of in a new city, knowing no-one and basically getting on with it. A year on I  must say this has been the most challenging, enriching, humbling experiences I have ever had with a twist of self discovery and appreciation with a glimpse of hope, happiness and light. I therefore would like to begin my forthcoming posts with sharing my experiences of what I see, experience and learn.


So for next time..................

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May these words have a positive impact on you as much as it had on me.

By Theodore Roosevelt

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Nearly two and a half year ago I wrote a post title 6 months of work and it as basically listing all the relevant lesson learnt from being in the workforce during this period. I must state that I am neither an expert in such field nor have I got extended experiences to solidify my opinions. Nevertheless the other day I was reflecting upon the alteration of positions and work environment since (I am still striving for achievements) and decided to construct a refined list of lessons that I have been able to take away from each experience and that kind of became like a mission statements which could be remembered when faced with life's obstacles of all sorts and you still want to reach a particular destination. This was quite personal but I truly hope that someone somewhere may benefit from this, so here it is:

1)No one Knows YOU more than you do-Don’t let others define you and Don’t lose yourself in others definition of you
2)People who see a quality in you that they don’t have will always try to make it difficult for you, move swiftly away
3)Be confident that you have the ability to produce good work-if not then it needs a little tweaking which you have the ability to complete
4)Don’t ever EVER show signs of GIVING UP-you will allow others to take gladness of such situations and this will not serve you well.
5)If you don’t know something-learn it and move on-Einstein didn’t become Einstein in a day
6)Anyone who tries to belittle you-smile, dust it off and focus on the goal-they don’t know you
7)Be vocal-don’t allow anyone to silence you
8)Remember to try yourself in different arenas-enhance yourself in different activities to reinforce your multiple abilities and talents
9)Always stay CONFIDENT- No one will give this to you except YOURSELF
10)Don’t ever concentrate on pathetic human interactions of he-says she-says, always keep your eyes on the goal-you much wiser than this-be the example you want to see
11)Stay calm and collected and don’t allow other peoples stress to get through to you-be sure that God has already planned everything out for the best
12)Judgements are usually based on what you portray-if you think assurance-appear sure-people will think you self-assured
13) Be bold, brave and courageous-see an opportunity grab it and make use of it.
14)Ensure you able to identify you own gaps-no-one will do this favour for you –refine the gap and move on
15)Success is for seeing an unachieved achievement and achieving it coupled with focus, hard work, determination, overcoming unnecessary obstacles and patience but remember while you are on the path to experience a lot
16)Live simply, think BIG and produce beneficial outcomes
17)Drive to zero and the product would go zero too!
18)Don’t burden yourself more than you can take. Don’t be your worst enemy, but your best friend- try to smell the roses while you are on a mission!
19)Feel Happy about your past and present achievements no-matter how small-you are where you are because God believes in you to achieve
20)Live life positively physically, mentally and spiritually, live it the way it has been prescribed and don’t just exist

Lastly the most importantly is to remember that you and me are alive, breathing and hopefully physically able to plan from today, work for tomorrow and look forward to the future. peace

Last time I wrote anything here was the beginning of 2012! This comes to show how quickly time passes and that hours go by like weeks and weeks like months and months like years. Further to this in my last post I mentioned what new year means to me and its quite ironic that I am writing this just before the end of that year and the beginning of a new. Generally just before any new year you will hardly find me partying hard (as if!) nor will you find me in an exotic island having a holiday. Nope. You will most often find me by myself (if I can with such a large family but its possible)in isolation for some reflection. Funnily enough its usually also my birthday at this time of the year as well which unfortunately does not help because it adds to the thinking. Gosh I am really depressing you am I not? Hopefully you will see my point in this and hopefully I will try to make sense! What I am really trying to say is that its there are a lot of things for me to be grateful for. Looking back at 2012 I have experienced a lot, and its the only year I can truly say that I have made decisions which has which has shifted my equilibrium 360 degrees. However the decisions have been risky but has set me off in a new direction submerged in something that is completely new to me in a completely new environment. Someone ones said to me that its not your environment that will do something for you but its what you can do in the environment you are in. Certainly this quote has stayed with me for a long time and I am still trying to embody it till this day. Having said this this years reflection will involve a lot of gratefulness (as all years) that I have been able to experience lots of laughter, joy, challenges, opportunities, obstacles, spiritual growth, contentment, changes, alteration in mind-set, inner growth (and outer more grey hairs!, humility and

peacefulness. I truly whish each and everyone of us well and will leave you with another quote that I think is befitting to add on here and now: "Faith makes dreams possible, Hope makes efforts worthwhile and Joy makes any outcome beautiful". May the new year bring us all three and may we achieve more possibilities. Until next time.........

Deja Vu

Wow this blogg still exist! I have just spent sometime going through some old posts and it has brought about many memories that virtually can make me cry. I have come to appreciate the wisdom and strength in writing of ones experiences and how therapeutical it can be.

This past couple of years I have felt that life has been an uncertain roller-coaster, but I must say that looking back I have developed and grow alot as a person. I have been able to apply myself in different settings, challenge myself and make important decisions and sometimes I have had to question myself, become angry with myself, feel proud of myself and smile at myself. But one thing I have become certain about is that whatever stage of life I may find myself I am able to be me; humble, sincere, optimistic me and that will not change. This coupled with some maturity, integrity and inner strength developed through the years, VOILA I cant complain can I. Oh and a bit if grey hair.......:)

My last words for this post; its the begining of a new year, this for me means new dreams, new goals, new achievements, new knowledge and concepts to grasps, and definetly new challenges but above all aspirations for joy and happiness for all of us.

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Pathway

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saying for the day:

"we are all born with gifts, but in order to express them in life we must be able to meet our challenges with courage, patience and skill"


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When you find it!

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Sentence for the day: "Everybody was created with a purpose not only to make money or wander around aimlessly, but once you have found it do not let it slip".

So the purpose people is to try to find that purpose, that thing that makes a difference to you and maybe indirectly to others and that does give you the REAL inner sinerity, it may take years upon years to find, but while your are on this earth know that everyone else is also a seeker.....

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Mental Breakthrough

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It feels weird to write something, as if it somehow used to feel natural before. Anyhows whenever I feel that I have burnt myself out due to work or other responsibilities or just have lots in my mind and need to clear it and cant find a space to do so I usually book a flight somewhere far. I know but thats what it takes for me to figure things out and zome out and see the whole picture or just have a break. I recently visited a place were I used to call home 11 years ago. I was not able to understand how hostile the place had become. I mean it must be difficult to live in an environment which reminds you constantly of how different you are to the rest of the society but also for the society to judge you before even knowing anything about you, this sort of feeling only creates mental blockage/barriers for the one who is different which is so unhealthy. Sometimes I just wounder why people make situations complicated which is not, like simple maths, why is it difficult to understand the fact that we share the world with different groups of people each with its unique culture, tradition, religion, who happen to be scattered around in different places in which it was pre-destined. But the beuty of it all is that we people migrate, and when we do we end up crossing over to different places, to groups different from our own and instead of being fearfull,unwelcoming, hatefull all of these really unattractive qualities we could open up minds and see that different means opportunity to learn,learn who we share this huge home called earth contains and maybe thats an opportunity for cohesion and not hostility........

I really hope I have made sence and made my point as it came from deep inside

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Greatest Miracle of all times!!!

just wanted to drop some lines down nothing lengthy. I have recently been consumed by a dear person's pregnancy and it kind of feels like I have been living the experience with her. Asking questions,observing and feeling what the person is feeling has maybe just given me a glimpse of experience of the trials a pregnancy can offer. I first of all have to take my hat of to all mum out there, may God bless you for what you fo through for 9 whole months. Moreover what I find the most fascinating is the happiness on the persons face ones the baby has been born and the mum gets to hold the baby,suddenly the labour pain is gone and forgotten and the expession of happiness is incredible out of this world.
wow thats all I can say.


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Comment for the day!!!!

" What I am interested in is making a positive mark on the world while doing what I love. Some people just don’t get that". Therein lies the hurdle......


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Does what we see affect us?

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so I am back and my partly fasting of all forms of technology has ended and I will save that story for some other day since there is a particular subject I would like to mention or scream about as usuall. So I was driving towards a particular destination today and inorder to get to this destination you are literally forced to pass a motor way which is not particulary funn. As always there are billboards along the motor way which I particularly do not notice, this time it caught my eye, but it did so in a manner I which I had not seen it. I cannot imagine the last time a couple of words had provoked me to inner since of disturbance as these words on the billboards. It read with bold capital writings: "Making love longer, for a longer lasting sex" call bla bla bla. There are a couple of issues with these few sentences and my first question is why put it up in a motor way, secondly why make intimacy such a cheap commodity and de-valueing in such a manner, thirdly what exmple is this setting to youngster?

Some people may dismiss this and say I dont get bothered by advertisment anyways. My answer would be; who are you kidding, everyone somehow to some degree gets affected by what they see wheather that is positive or negative. Futhermore the advertisment industry plays a role in portraying a notion to the nation and thus a huge responnsibility lies withing it to who it conveys to what it conveys and the ethics and manner in which it conveys which I belive has been far lost in this pre-modern era. This is not only is seen on billboards other forms of relating information such as newspapers.

Futher to this, this billboard was also seen in Australia but it had to pulled down since complaints were recieved in vast numbers.......

I guess my concern stems from the society we live in, in which we are all the time encouraged to pursue what our "heart" desires without really thinking that the desire/pleasure which we are seeking may result in damage and destruction to oneself and ones surroundings. therefore its so easy to fall and become a victim of this type of destruction which really lies within our-self. Do not get me wrong I am not anti-pleasure (if there is a word like it) I do believe that desires are an essential godly creation but when it has been perverted, taken in excess or deficient by ones surroundings thats where the danger lies and that is where the soul is at its greatest risk. What I really want to say is that lifes is more than us concentrating on seeking out our pleasures and only thinking of our own selfs, which again these billboards, magazines are constantly reminding us of.


said to much, I think so


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6 months of work, many lessons

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I will try to ake this post as short as possible since I am kinda in a state of fasting from all forms of technologies just to revitilise myself in my inner dimensions, so that I'll come back with a bit more energy and focus on my journey.

First of all I feel blessed in all kind of ways since I have got my health and dear and near as well as being involved in a work that I deeply love. I have to say though like with anything else in life it has its ups and downs and celebrating my 6 minths anniversary at work their are lots that I have learnt throughout the way wich I would like to share:

1) Time is gold, fill it with its proper content and you will get much more out of it.

2) Passion; if its there it will give you satisfaction with what you doing

3) Ambition; always wanting to improve and reach perfection and looking for ways & opportunities to do so will not only get you far in any position but will inspire those around you which will influence the dinamic of the work place.

4) Difficulties; will surely come wheather that is with other people, work-load, technologies etc. but what dampens it is not loosing temper and looking for different innovative solutions, always look at the bigger picture and dont let minute things distract you.

5) Make a difference;

6) Mercy and Compassion; is absolutely the key if espcecially you work in the health field, sometimes its diffuclt to relate to another person when we are distracted by getting work done, but by relating to someone else will make us understand the other wich will help us coming up with solutions that is in equilibrium and enable work to flow.

7) Mistakes; accept it, learn from it and move on dont ever get entageld by faults no one is perfect and so everyone is prone to mistakes, its beyond us but they do tend to happen with its wisdom so reflect upon them and let it be a reason for you acceleration to higher ranks and not deccalaration to lower ranks.

8) Have a good time; whatever you get involved with make sure your content with it, this will definitely enlighten your heart and make it at peace even at the most stressfull situations because you doing something you belive and always remember you most happiest situations at work. This will remind you why you doing this in the first place and will help in most diffuclt situations.

9) Pass the knowledge on; any junior you have to work with, be a good supervisor and dont give juniors a hard time (unless they ask for it lol just kidding)since you have been at some point the newbee and learnt from someone else! Its said that the memories of an inspiring supervisor will always be there so be that supervisor.

10) Be well organised, with everything, your papers, work desk, even speech (in arguments).

I think thats all I can think of that I personally have learnt I am sure there lots of other points bit my brain has gone for a strike lol.....no seriously I really hope that anything I have said will be of any benefit.....

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Discussion

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First of all let me take this opportunity to which everyone a beneficial fast and may your spiritual month be one filled with enlightment and peace to the heart. Secondly I had the privilege some time ago to attend a discussion show. This was an experience wich I welcomed greatly since I had never attended a tv show and thus was interessted into knowing how things are run as well as being live one planning from the team was crucial. Moreover before attending the editor sent everyone attending the topics and asked for feedback, and so I would like to share them here:

1) Should the great apes be given civil rights? (Things like a right to safety, against discrimination, equality, all sorts of non-speaking rights that humans have)

I agree that the great apes should definitely be accorded the legal right to life and protection from torture. Apes have been endangered for centuries where ape mothers have been shot and their infants shipped off as pets in different countries. I also believe that this law should be extended to other endangered species and that justice and respect should be observed for all non-human species since giving rights for one group and not another is in itself a breach of civil rights and discriminatory. However I do believe that this law would not mean to open up zoo gates and let all apes free but rather zoos should serve the purpose of preserving species but also ensuring an environment where they are given the opportunity to flourish and not be tortured or subjected to cruel and degrading treatment. Moreover as we debate about establishing laws for animals we should not forget the millions of humans around the world that live in sub-human conditions



2) could catholic confession be a replacement for therapy?

I believe that the purpose of confession i.e. acknowledge ones sins, repent from them and seek forgiveness is therapeutic for the soul and can protect it from further insult. However I don’t believe that it should be a replacement therapy where it involves third party since repenting should be a personal act whereby one does the mistake, seeks repentance and enter into a sincere covenant with god directly.



3) Are worldly goods an obstacle to enlightenment?

As with everything, worldly goods if over indulged or extravagant and overly obsessed with could be one of the factors in the prevention of enlightenment since ones focus and energy is engulfed by the interest for money and possessions rather than spiritual or ethical values. Having said this humans by nature have the tendencies for material inclination but if used within measured levels can serve a purpose of a more harmonious existence where neither material ingredient (rank of beast) nor spiritual ingredient (monasticism) dominates.

Three purtent questions which I know has no right or wrong answer, but one thing I would like to also add is that it was extremly interessting to see that a room filled with people could have such a varied opinion which in turn propagated a discussion whereby points were raised from a few point I didnt considere.

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On a lighter note

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so suffering net I found this site where it poses 25 personal questions which is supposedly good for any conversation, interessting I though. So for a change I try to answer the here no matter how embarassed I will be (this is a challenge) it'll be a change from my seriousness. By the way havent read the questions yet so it will be answered as I go, so I quess here we go:



1. Name the most terrifying moment of your life so far.

A: finnishing my degree lol no seriously when I was slightly burnt on a small patch of my foot (its healed pretty good now) years ago.

3. What famous person do other people tell you that you most resemble?

A: dont know seriously? have to ask those around me.....

4. What is the strangest thing you’ve ever eaten?

A: samosas with pourage, promise its strange but delicious, just buy samosa stuffed with minsed meat and eat it with freashly made pourage,mummm


5. If you could bring one character to life from your favorite book, who would it be?

A: prophet moses, such a character, want to ask so many questions.....


6. Do you believe honesty is the best policy? A: always no matter how butter it is!

7. What vegetable do you most resemble? A: I think ananas, why because seems unapproachable on the outside but sweet on the inside lol

8. What dead person would you least want to be haunted by?

A: All the corrupted, evil, dishonest people who have caused mass destruction to human souls as well as every living creatures.


9. Who would you most like to be stuck in an elevator with?

A: do I have choose I person, then a fire fighter who would know how to rescu us or call his biddies to do so, lol no seriously anyone from my family to keep me in company.


10. What do you think Victoria’s secret is?

A: Who?

11. Which cartoon character do people say you resemble the most?

A: I think pokahontas use to be on ages ago....

12. Would you rather go a week without bathing, but be able to change your clothes, or a week without a change of clothes, but be able to bathe?

A: what? whats that for question, seriously? do I have to answer? well....defenetly cannot live without a bath.....weird question, who came up with this?


13. Which of the four seasons do you most anticipate?

A: I do love winter, it means so much to me, I know must be weird....lol


15. You can choose your last meal. What will the menu consist of?

A: dates

16. If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?

A: The Big Question, such an intellectual show, if only I could have the front seat lol

17. List 5 people you know. Then describe each of them in 1 words.

Friend 1: warm

Friend 2: responsible

Friend 3: funny

Friend 4: loyal

Friend 5: calm

18. You can select one person from history and ask them a question to which they must give a thruthful reply. Whom would you select, and what question would you ask?

A: I would ask Yasser arafat: What motivated you to keep going all those years?


19. If you joined the circus, what act would you most want to perform?

A: definitely the clown, brings such a smile


20. You discover that your wonderful one-year-old child is, because of a mix-up at the hospital, not yours. Would you want to exchange the child to correct the mistake?

A: What that for question, who wouldnt???????

21. Would you be willing to become extremely ugly physically if it meant you would live for 1,000 years at any physical age you chose?

A: I would choose to be the way I am and live according to my prescribed time, everything has its meaning!

22. Would you be willing to commit perjury in court for a close friend? What if your lie would save his life?

A: Very difficult question, I dont know depends on what the situation is, but I know that my friends would not end up in court in the first place.....


23. Would you be willing to eat a bowl of live crickets for $40,000?

A: no way,


24.If you could have one superpower, which would you choose?

A: making people forget about their traumatic experiences, especially children.



So I have now completed the most weirdest set of questions I will ever come across, how do I feel? Feel like I have wasted some energy and time ,but some of the questions werent all that bad though needs some major re-developments,lol

good night

Life again

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Rigth so the past couple of weeks has been kind of hectic and I quess the couple of weeks forth coming will also bee very hectic, one thing I have to relise though not to make my body overwork, but I have to say I do enjoy work. It does give me such a huge satisfaction. I have come to learn alot, appreciate alot and reflect alot. I have no specific subject to talk about but there are couple of observations that I would like to embrase and shed ligth on. I think this post will be abit personal in a sence. I have come to make serious life decisions and I think I am about to put my thoughts into action. I have always had one ambition and that whats kind of keept me going all of those years of sheer hard work but now when I feel I am a step close and as it feels like crossing bridge I feeling hesitant, but I feel the mission is not complete without me completing the crossing. I am sort of person that will think through things but make a swift decision and later on relise how huge the decision is. On nother tone a close peron to me the other day mentioned settling down and starting a family. As I laughed through the idea I looked at her face and I managed to grip the serious look. I knew she really meant it. Deep down I know the answer of this which is that I feel that one has to seriously have though through this life changing experience before endulging into it. My opinion on marriage migth be strict and certainly not sencualised and commercialised, because I dont belive in marriage which based on fantasies. In any major project one decised to undertake one knows that it will involve hard work, sacrifice, understanding, compassion, loalty etc. and so why would marriage be different to this. In addition one will be involved in the greatest project of life i.e. to ensure production and deliverence of a generation who can contribute and continue of the care taking of earth. See why I think is hard work! and then I look at my abilities and see that it would be difficult to live to the expectations and prospone the thought.

I do tend to look at statistics quite often although questioning its originality it can tell us quite alot. Recently I was looking at the divcorce rates and suprising discovered that UK has the highest, as well as highest single parents, wow I though. I also though wounder who has the lowest and discovered Italy, with thier close family mentality. but these findings raises important questions, first of them being have we lost any particular values, do we have proper information about relationships what it entails, involves and parenting skills? too many questions to deal with here. anyways I am too tired to I better doze off for now


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any way said enough I think, there was another think I wanted to mention but I quess I save it for another time.

So what's your secret???

hmm this is the question I got from a lady at work today. I did not notice that the lady was staring at me as I was going about my buisness and finally she popped the question and as swift as I am I though I understood the deeper meaning of her question and I answered do you really want to know?. I swore that her face expression showed eagerness to find out something spectacular or extraordinary remedy but all I replied was: being happy. She looked at me with a smile and walked away. I was not trying to be sarcastic but at the same time as I did not see that question coming I delt with it naturally as if my heart suddenly developed lips and started pouring out what it wanted.

Funnly enough that evening at home I switched on the tele just to find a documentary quess what about....yea you gest it "happiness". To my supprised I learnt quiet substantial amount of information which got me really suprised and as usual I would like to share it so here I drop it:

fact 1: Britain is less happy than in the 1950s - despite the fact that we are three times richer

fact 2: The proportion of people saying they are "very happy" has fallen from 52% in 1957 to just 36% today.

fact 3: One recent table has Switzerland as the happiest country, followed by Denmark, Sweden, Ireland and the USA. Britain comes eighth.

fact 4: A remarkable 81% wanted happiness as the goal. Only 13% wanted greatest wealth.

fact 5: So what makes us happy? Almost half of people - 48% - say that relationships are the biggest factor in making them happy. Second is health on 24%.

Ok let me stop the facts before this becomes another research article. As a nation the world has changed substantially the last 50 years. These changes includes econimical boost and with that comes much ease that prehaps is taken for granted, as well as socially we have more security than before and I am specifically thinking about national insurance which is there to support individualls. Even politically things has changed substantially as well laws and order are observed much more carefully but I am not sure if accurate. SO to summ up we have more wealth, if we get sick we have a wellfare that will take care of us, if we loose our job again wellfare to fallback on, and franckly speaking starvation is impossible here in the west what more, so why are we not happy then?

One thing that I am sure of is that happiness is inner experience whom everyone defines in their different ways but at the same time we can tell it when it ingulfs us but you hardly hear someone saying "I am so happy". This concerns me , it concerns me to think that we are develpoing or already have developed symptoms of mass depression, depression of emotion, depression of knowing what makes us happy and ultimately aimimg for it.

One thing that I want to conclude with is that most people's definition of happiness involved family and friends, but the results threw up a surprise. The second largest group of responses centred around contentment and inner peace. If only we can be take a minute to understand what we have got as to what we want, if only we can understand how to surround ourself with the people we like, if only we can understand the bigger picture of things and not get boiled down to minute details, then and only then contentment and peace will settle within us.

peace

Reflection for the day!

Peace

just three things that I have been reflecting on:

1) differences

2) belief

3) some day we all will be.......


peace

Simple?

I know I am supposed to continue from my previous post but really I have other things in my mind. If this post sounds a bit pessimistic then I will definifetly follow it up with somehings abit light hearted, reflecting me. However just a question I was thinikng about the other day: what happened to real moral sence? and to be more specific I mean sayings which was ingraved in us well at least the ones that were sane amongst us such as:

" a smile in your brother's face is a charity", "the best of you is the one best to his family" or "obesession for revenge is poison that flows through a diseased soul", "the patient one achieves the best of aims", "you true valaue is determined by you character"

I can go on and on and on about these sayings which to be honest just reading them I feel so distant from them in real life. I just feel that having been caught up in this pre-modern all rushed up life its very difficult to put things in proportion and hence its so easy to lose balance, its all about all or nothing. Strange no seriously its very sad that it has to be this way. Dont get me wrong I have meet a couple of people very few I have to say who still have these qualities and it makes me feel simple and you must be woundering what simple who,its because these qualities are so easy to implement and once you do you feel light as a feather and a simple creature who has nothing to worry about; no anger, no selfishness, no jelousy etc.

Anyways hope I made sence if I go on more I might write something completely strange because my eyes are closing in into each other which indicates sleep.

peace