Saturday 29 November 2014

Reflection and an old lady

Life experiences can be a very peculiar sometimes. There are people who pretend that they are certain of their life pathways, knowing where they going how they will do things and where and when they will do this perhaps with a hint of pretending and proclaiming  to the world their assertiveness. While others innocently will openly express their anxiety of life’s uncertainties s as they see it. Many others sit in the fence of being in-beetweners that could possibly be you and I. We observe life as it happens day by day, experience its ups and downs neither do we pretend nor are we interested in an appearance of having it figured out.

At the age of 11 I one day looked out of the window as I often was seen doing just trying to be away with my thoughts to let my mind wonder with the world’s biggest questions, only to notice an old lady from the opposite window of the opposite blocks of flats. She was probably in her late 90 with a gracefully aged face that most certainly has been through decades. In a glimpse of a moment our eyes met and I probably have never forgotten the intensity of our sight of connection.  In this intense couple of seconds all I could think of was how much life this women must have had on this earth how much she had probably experienced and how life has caught up with her leaving her in a fragile state of mind and body, all I could wish for her was to hope that her long stay here was worth it! The irony is that I truly believed that her thoughts as she was staring into my youthful eyes filled with curiosity and vigour was:”I too was this young once upon a time, little girl, I know that it goes quickly time that is and if time catches up with you you too will be in my state soon, make sure that your make your stay worthwhile”! 20 years later often do I think about this lady as if I saw her today, and I think about if we had meet again today she would probably have said; “did I not tell you little girl that life would have caught up with you, so have you reflected upon your life yet? Have you lived yet? Has your life been one with dignity, duty, and perseverance for something good, have you truly spend your time wisely? Or have you just existed? Have you questioned your passions and found what you supposed to stand for or have you followed what is supposed to be and not questioned? Have you been courageous in your causes or have you crippled into a comfortable zone where pretty much the rest of us stay? Have you gone beyond the call of duty and truly felt the deepest human connection? Have you made a difference? Well little girl you still not as old as me and so if you are unable to answer any of my chanting questions you still remain on this earth and so time is still on your hands, maybe if I ever come into your mind again after sometime I am more than sure you will be able to answer much of my questions. Above all little girl think, reflect much and deep, for the best of courses of actions  comes from such activities and just let life happen, rest assure it will happen without your permission, go along with it but never lose your core sense of self in anything. Rise above any challenges, trust me that’s  what this life is but you have the freedom of thoughts and so you can rename circumstances beyond of what they appear to be no matter how horrible they feel. Never call them chances and never complain about them, they meant to be experienced for a specific purpose, face them with an assured heart and trust me that nothing will ever be lost, not your efforts, nor your struggles even if that appears the case for other. Never think about what others have to say or think, rise beyond such noises, for at end of the darkness of the day they are only frequencies of noises which disappear in the air lost amongst the galaxies not affecting any existing stars. Little girl live and experience and put the life’s puzzles together that is your life’s puzzle, your pieces are scattered on this earth, once you have completed your puzzle together everything will be much more clearer, trust me, hang on and continue, little girl.